I’ve been really self conscious lately. Don’t know why, but it might be for the best. It’s prompted me to start working out, giving a shit about fashion, and thinking about what I say before I say it. Well, I’ve been doing these things to limited extents, but you know, still in the back of my head.

I guess it’s just the fact that I still feel a little alien here. I had a dream last night where I cut my fro off (eeehh) and was rocking some kinda emo looking cut with brown highlights. lol I kinda liked it, it will be a direction I will take into consideration after this summer.

As for the apartment, I went up and checked it out and… I want it. Hopefully I can drop off my deposit today on my lunch break. I think I’ll bring my camera today so I can take pictures of the outside, it really is neat for a Guam complex. My problem is I still kinda live paycheck to paycheck (I have like, 15 bucks to last me this week, I have failed you, Crys.) and said paycheck comes around the 5th (usually on or a day after at the latest) and that happens to the day rent is typically due. Again, wouldn’t be a problem if I went Salary, unfortunately…. I’ll have to seriously talk to them about it since Al says that these people don’t play around.

Ah shit, look at the time, need to go to work (also kinda wanna drift while it’s still raining). I’ll try to write real blog posts more often.